me vs the world

i lock myself inside these walls
hear nothing than the beat of my heart
and the tears that keep on falling
although i’m not crying
although i’m not crying..

let the rain fall and wash my pain away
but the scars will remain
and shades of the past haunting me
they will never fade away
’cause memories are forever..

what’s with the future?
i can’t look straight at it
’cause the darkness that surrounds me
is locking the pain inside and blinding me
help me, i’m trying to break free

let the rain fall and wash these tears away
but will the sun ever shine again?
or will there be a storm that carries me
and makes my existence fade away
’cause nothing lasts forever..

**lagu yg gw bikin dg susah payah buat tugas seni musik dari si mr. rossa yg nyebeliiiin!! susah nyari nadanya tauk!! (huweee akhirnya slese jg..)

Chisana koro ni wa takara no chizu ga
Atama no naka ni ukandeite
Itsudemo sagashita kiseki no basho o
Shiranai dareka ni makenai you ni
Ima de wa hokori darake no mainichi
Itsu no hi ka subete no
Toki ni mi o makaseru dake
Moshi mo sekai ga kawaru no nara
Nanimo shiranai koro no watashi ni
Tsurete itte omoide ga iro asenai you ni
    when I was young, a treasure map
    was spread in my mind
    making sure that someone unknown won’t take
    the miraculous place that I’ve been searching for
    right now, it’s life filled with dusts
    someday, I’ll leave it up to
    everything’s time
    if the world ever changes
    take me to myself that never knew a thing
    making sure that memories won’t fade away

Chisana koro kara uta o utatte
Yume miru kokoro atatameteta
Minna de maneshita himitsu no merodei
Kondo wa jouzu ni kikoeru you ni
Ima de wa tame iki tsuite bakari de
Daremo mada hontou no
Yume sae tsukamenai mama
Moshi mo jidai ga modoru no nara
Namida o shitta koro no watashi ni
Tsurete itte setsunasa ga oitsukanai you ni
    I was singing since I was small
    warming the heart that dreams
    the secret melody that everyone imitated
    making sure that it can be done better this time
    right now, I keep on sighing
    everyone is still unable to
    grab the true dream
    if the time ever goes back
    take me to myself that learned tears
    making sure that loneliness can’t catch up

Moshi mo sekai ga kawaru no nara
Nanimo shiranai koro no watashi ni
Tsurete itte omoide ga iro asenai you ni
Tsurete itte setsunasa ga oitsukanai you ni
    if the world ever changes
    take me to myself that never knew a thing
    making sure that memories won’t fade away
    making sure that loneliness can’t catch up

well..let’s go back to the intro, since i havent introduced myself earlier..just wanna speak my mind, actually..*ga penting yah?
here goes..

Name  : Nadhila Andanis Zafhira
Date Of Birth : December 11th, 1990 (so..umurnya itung aja ndiri! ^^)
Place of birth : Jakarta
Bloodtype : AB
Address  : aaada deh!! mau.tau.sajaa.. xp
Phone number : (021) ********
Cellphone number: 08********** xD
Current School : SMAN 28 Jakarta

aaah basi bgt sihh?? to the point aja deh..wanna speak my mind..

hal2 yg disukai:
- ibadah (ini mah wajib!!)
- tidur
- makan
- baca (key of knowledge…hahah)
- nggambar
- gitar
- jeruk! jeruk! jeruk!
- blue colour
- one piece
- naruto
- manga scan 2 komik tsb
- pocket knifes
- udara segar/sejuk.. AC (Angin Cepoi-cepoi)
- nature (mountains, beaches, anything!)
- fury pet mammals (cats, bunnies, squirrels, guinea pigs, etc)
- big wild cats (singa, harimau, cheetah, dsb.. keren sihh! bayinya lucu…)
- nge-netz
- ngutak-ngatik potosop ama corel
- ngutak-ngatik pc (still learning..takut bikin rusak ni xp)
- ngescan gbr buatan sndiri..wakakakak
- taekwondo
- motor
- jeep
- nasyid2nya bijak
- musik2nya sp, nfg, mest, gc, yc, soty, relient k
- boneka gw satu2nya..si grizzly yg gepeng namun empuk xp
- nulis puisi (express myself..)
- komik, cd, vcd, dvd bajakan…gyahahahaha
- event di 28 yaitu "3 jam bersama pa udin" a.k.a bljr fisika.. (entah kenapa kl bljr fisika, waktu trasa lbh cepat..dibanding pljrn2 lain)
- ditraktir..bwakaka
- dll dsb..

hal2 yg ga disukai:
- asep rokok
- insects and arachnids
- org pacaran
- dicuekin
- dijutekin (sapa jugaa yg seneng dicuekin dan dijutekin??)
- being forgotten
- dibohongin dan dikhianatin (jelas laaah..)
- teringat akan masa lalu yg pahit!! ("my scars remind me that the past is real..")
- teori seni musik..!! apalagi klo gurunya…..beuhhh!!
- pelajaran praktek yg malah banyakan teorinya (i hate talking about theories only!! buktiin dong!!)
- klo ada materi bagus (anything) tapi pematerinya ga bs menyajikan dg baik dan menarik..
- ilmu sosial (ilmu sosial=nalar?? apanya???)
- informasi ga jlas shingga bikin pengerjaannya ga bener (contoh: ub2 pendidikan agama islam. *ko gaada yg ngsh tau klo materinya mpe bab haji??? blm diajarin pula!!)
- dan masih banyak lg…

scara garis besar, gw itu…
gw tu pada dasarnya enjoy aja sama orang2, tapi terkadang gw lebih seneng sndiri, cuz gw sering gtu dicuekin, ga pduli mo gw ada ato ngga. bahkan kadag gw dianggep gaada gitu. gtau jg klo skarang..sama aja sih keknya. ga beda jauh. gw sbenernya easy going bgt, but at times gw bs sensi jg., trutama klo lg bete..klo ngga ingin menghibur apalagi mo bikin tambah kesel, jangan deket2 dehh…(klo mo menghibur sih,  fine2 aja…thx bgt malah). gw bs dibilang punya ’sedikit’ trauma. (sedikit???) gw uda lebih dr 2x lost trust sm org yg gw percaya bgt. slh satunya mpe gw anggep adek sndiri lohh. ehh…taunya…die pergi gtu aja ninggalin gwe. pke bikin gw sakit ati sgala! (temen apa temen tuhh??) makanya wajar aja klo suka jaga jarak ma org. susaaaaah percaya ma org skarang!! janji di mulut doang…words are kept words. kaga ada buktinya.. tapi yaa…gw fine2 aja ko tmenan ma org banyak, wlpn mpe skrg gw msh susah buat nemuin teman sejati.. tapi gw paling sebel klo dicuekin, ato org2 pada sibuk sendiri, kaga ada yg notice-in gw gt, jd gw sih lebih milih diem. gw jg ga suka nyari masalah, kecuali org lain yg duluan. (kl gt jgn salahin gw ya…) gw lebih suka diksh tau fakta ato kjujurannya drpd diboongin, trus akhirnya gw tau jg. jd…mending ksh tau dr awal dong.
well actually there’re still a lot about me, so if you wanna know more, get to know me, or read my journal. ^^ enjoy! *kyk pada mo baca smua ini gitu??*